The Truth

One. week. left.

It's starting to hit me. A few weeks ago, I was insanely excited about the idea of completing a triathlon.

But now...to tell you the truth...I'm freaking out. And not just about my triathlon.

For the past few weeks, I've been feeling a little different.

I'm just plain old tired.

There's no other way to describe it. I'm really really freaking tired. Like all. of. the. time.

I went to my doctor and she told me it could be the aftereffects of starting a new job. While I'm having a great time at my job, teaching middle school can be stressful and that could be the cause of my sudden sleepiness.

I just want to sleep all day. Everyday.

I feel lazy. And stupid. And fat.

Seriously. I can't stand this! And the worst part is that it's making me re-think running altogether! Like, can I really train properly if I need to sleep so much? Should I really be doing this?

I have already signed up for the RNRAZ marathon in January and I know I don't want to back out.

I want to run it. But sleeping instead of running is not helping! I even missed another trail run with my running group because I couldn't wake up!

I'm going to go to the hospital to do a sleep study. Maybe I'm not sleeping at night? Sleepwalking, snoring, sleep apnea?? Not sure, but I need to find out what is causing this sudden tiredness!!!

Please send good thoughts my way. I'm going to need them.